Archive for April, 2011

The Intrepid Explorer Returns

Fee came walking around the corner of the house this morning, totally unfazed and apparently looking for breakfast and a comfy place to curl up for a nap. And now I know what to spend that gift card on. A microchip and collar are coming soon to a cat near you.

Fee is missing

I’m worried sick and can’t sleep. He’s probably okay, and only been gone at most a couple hours. It’s too late to go outside and call for him, although I tried a little bit. I’m trying to remember the last time I saw him. It was a few hours ago, just before we watched the latest Doctor Who. I took the trash out right afterwards, and I definitely haven’t seen him since then.

We got Hermia back when she got out that one time. And Sarah too. And cats are far more resourceful than goofy, innocent little ferrets. But I still feel like I’ve swallowed a mountain, and since I called in sick to work today I don’t know how I could possibly do so again tomorrow.

I can’t do much tonight. I should go to bed so I can get up early to look for him. But I just can’t sleep.


Security settings

I’m still trying to make this blog accessible to real people but not spambots. I’ve turned off the password protection that was prompting (rather rudely) for people to enter a username/password when looking at the blog. It was an unintended consequence of password-protecting my admin area that I can’t figure out how to fix. Dad, I know you’ve been having some problems commenting. I’ll see if I can get around that next. If anyone has trouble commenting, please email me at mamatriumphant gmail com and I’ll see if I can get you straightened out.

I thought 32 would be awesome

Throughout my life, I’ve felt like there were years that would just somehow be better or worse than others. 27 was slated to be an amazing year since the age of 13 or so, and indeed it was an excellent year. 32 was supposed to be another fantastic year. So far, it feels like it’s not living up to expectations. Sparked by some extremely difficult times at work, I’ve instead found myself struggling through a (hopefully relatively minor) spell of depression. I’m somewhat regretting having already chosen to Not Talk About Work here. I thought I was on top of things in my life, but I feel very out of control. The pressure of ScriptFrenzy has turned out to be too much for me, and my guilt at my own inability to write at the end of 9 hours of barely-hanging-on every day has seriously undermined my ability to update this blog. I’ve been reading Fosterhood in NYC (I’d been savoring it but have now caught up) and decided to try and take a page from Rebecca’s book and just post about inconsequentialiaties (is that a word?) for a while. I’m fascinated by her, her lifestyle choices, and her strength. So I’m just going to try little posts for a while in hopes that I can get back into this.

This week, the big decision has been whether to take the $100 gift card I got at work and: a) buy an $100 gift card for myself for future minor purchases, b) put it towards buying a gas grill so I can stop struggling with charcoal, or c) buying myself a decent pressure cooker. I don’t really want to feel like I frittered the card away on little purchases, although I expect most of them would be books about pregnancy and child rearing. A hundred dollars doesn’t quite make a decent grill affordable, so I would still be spending another hundred+ on the grill. And I can’t imagine what I’d use a pressure cooker for besides corned beef and cabbage. So the card is just sitting in my wallet for now.

I also found out that I might be able to take 12 weeks of maternity leave instead of 6, which is pretty awesome! Maybe, like 27, I’ll find the joy in 32 a little bit later in the year (I got married right before I turned 28). I’d like to have 6 months, but I don’t know that there’s anywhere out there that would offer so much. And not entirely sure I want to know either; I feel pretty trapped already by the knowledge that no one would hire a pregnant woman and FMLA wouldn’t help me at a new job at this point.

I’m starting to mope out loud (ish) aren’t I? That’s enough of that.

Day 3, pages 6-9

For those following along, going to work has been replaced with going to a brunch of some sort. Also, since I can’t help but edit as I go along, the script is already slightly different in other (minor) ways.

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Frenzy 2011

As you may or may not know, this year I’m attempting to participate in ScriptFrenzy.  That means a lot of this month’s updates will be bits and pieces of a script, or if things don’t go quite as planned, multiple scripts. The first installment is today. So far I’m at 6 pages! Please forgive formatting; converting to HTML is a pain.

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